Dear Ak, Ay, Bz, Ys, Rn, and Nm,
What most people don't know is how "by the seat of your pants" we Ws really are. As a pre-W I was a note taker, a list writer. I was calculated, organized, and it was simply divine. Enter Big Abba W, and my life changed drastically. Suddenly everything was "WHOOO HOOOO!!!" Life was one big wild RED blur. We went to Israel with 2 days notice. Planned our wedding the week before. Had two kids within the first two years. Bought our first mini-van sight unseen. Nothing was planned! Organized! What type if life was this???? I wondered. Nothing made sense! Where were my lists? My careful calculations were henceforth chucked out the window before even being calculated!
Now I roll with the punches with the best of them. I don't always wash the dishes in the kitchen sink before I go to bed, I often leave the house without making the beds! But hey, this is life in the fast lane, right? But in all seriousness, I learned one very important life lesson from this W lifestyle. And that is: Ein Od Milvado. There is no one but HIM. He runs the world. Not me, not Big Abba W. All the lists, notes and careful planning do not put us in charge.
Kids, nisim happen every single day. We just have to 1) look for them 2) find them. Nope, these are not the same. Here's what I mean: To look for them means to be actively searching. Most people skip this step, but it's crucial. To find them, means to recognize those things that may seem like everyday occurances or happenstance as Yad Hashem. He's out there, and He wants to help us. We just have to let Him in :)